Part of my two zero one two's. ♥

Before 2012 come to an end, I would like to thank all of my lovely people that came into my life & never left. Throughout those days we had spent our days together, I might be a little stubborn,childish & princess attitude etc but you guys still love me for who I am. You're the ones that bought colours into my life, guiding me throughout, and never leave me alone when I'm really needed someone. Y'all will forever be part of me, my life & my memories. ♥

This girl, my CQY. ♥ Who has the same chinese surname as me. We know each other since primary school, during that time we don't seem to like each other. But now, what are we? Best friend for life. We share everything we had. We gossip, we cried, we laugh, we get angry with each another & most importantly we love. We love each other for who we are, we accept every flaws that the other party had. We support each another when one collapsed. We love to share our secrets around, trust is more than you can imagine. We don't feel uncomfortable when both of us came to a silence. I'm going to love you for life. Don't ever thought of leaving me aside, because I'm cling to you & you won't be able to shake me off. All the best in your next education stage. I love you babygirl. xoxo. ♥

Another bff of mine. My fel. ♥ An awesome friend who has been with me for 4 years. Although we might drift a little sometimes but after some time we got back together. We seldom have fights cause we understand and trust each other fully. We had silly fights for example; shooting each another like machine guns till the other party had nothing to say. Ain't we cute? We no need to text everyday to keep our distance close. Our distance is unseen, cause you won't know how close we are till we're one of us. But too bad, it's tough for you to do that. Our conversation for a day is unable to complete within that day.  Let's keep our long lasting friendship ongoing okay? I love you my girlfriend. xoxo.♥

My beloved clique. ♥ We had came this far despite having countless of problems. We're still as one although some had decided to leave. We had our hard times together when we're dealing with our N's. In a few days time, we might be feeling different without some of you guys. I'm happy for you guys who get to enter polytechnic. But I'm so going to miss you guys. :( PLEASE DO NOT FORGET US WHEN YOU MET NEW FRIENDS IN POLY. Indeed, we must meetup to have our bonding session, am I right? No matter where we go, we'll be a clique forever okayyyyyyyy? Huixin, huishan, peizhen, zuqi, wenyi, nicole, fel & me shall stick together like superglue till the end. I love y'all. xoxo. ♥

31st - 2012 ♥

My dearest planned to bring me out as I wanted to at least spent my 31st with him. He told me to meet him at Pending Lrt @ 8 in the morning. I woke up at 6 in the morning, yawns. I slept for 3 hour plus only. Dear told me if he is unable to wake up on time on his own, he ask me to spam call him or just go up to look for him. But luckily, he manage to pick up my first call. I'm kinda shocked and happy as he slept for about 4 hours only. When he came to fetch me, he is in simple dressing that gave me another impression of himself. After arriving at his house, his dog came to welcome me. Isn't it cute? ;) His dog name POPO. ♥ He doesn't bark at me, he can just rest soundly on baby's bed. QTPIE. Once we reach his room, baby immediately jump on his bed for sleep. He took of his cap and spec and off to his bed. I really can't explain how adorable my boy is. He is such a  boss, ask me to help him massage but luckily my skill are still not bad. So didn't let baby down & he gave me a praising. Well, something happen in between but it was quite okay after that. Around 11 plus, baby need to get ready to go Orchard, he went to bathe and change into his handsome outfit. -winkwink- I just love the way he dress himself. I'm too in love with him la~ ♥.♥ There's still some time before we really have to go, so he sleep on my lap and I'm able to see his sleeping face. ♥ Something cute happen. Awww. His hugs is the best, making me feel loved & secure. When we reached Orchard, we went to have our brunch. Pepper lunch! On our first meeting, we ate that too. x.x I shall shorten it. We met his colleagues and he introduce me to them, how sweet. We had fish & co for dinner & we laugh like nobody's business. Me and my boy took pic on that day too, our very first photo. I will put the photo as my phone wallpaper & I won't remove it. Boyfriend have drinking session later on but he can't bear to leave me alone @ 313 so he accompany me till my friends arrive for the countdown afterwards. Even though, I can't countdown with my baby. But it's okay, as long as we're together, loving each another.

** Boyfriend, I want to let you know that you're the best that I ever had. Maybe compare your ex with me, I'm still not that good. But I'm willing to change. For you. It has been hard for you to get out of the misery you had. But I promise that you won't having that as long as you're with me. I'll try to be an understanding girlfriend that gave you all the support that you need. I'll give you all of my love, my dear. Forget about the pain that you had in the past & start to taste the sweetness of the present. I would want to have one month, two month, three month, .... one year, two years ..... till the eternity with you. I cannot say that I can be your best girlfriend, but I'll give what I can. Will you want continue to have this cute relationship with me? Hold my hand so I can feel your temperature. Tie your heart to mine so I know you love me. I wanna last this relationship with you. My 12th's. I love you my dear. xoxo. ♥

So near yet so far.

Day #3. I thought that I might not be receiving any text from you. But surprisingly, you sent me a text & I'm like so damn happy. Even though, it's just a short & simple message, it just made my day. Is it god that grant me the wish or what? Miracle? Well, I don't know. Our sms conversation is like two normal party. We are once so close, now totally different from the way we used to be. So near yet so far. But at least things are getting a bit better for me.

** 12th, No matter how tough the route is, you'll be seeing me beside you wherever you go. You'll be seeing  me on your brightest side as well as the darkest side. I'll be your shadow when you're in the brightest side and your light in the darkest side. Often, people had to let go things that they want it the most. But for me, I going to hold you tight till you tell me to let go. I'm not going let go.

I can't erase the thoughts of you.

It's Day 2. I can't erase the thoughts of you. I. MISS. YOU. DAMN. BADLY. I will think of you when I saw someone that look like you & someone that uses the same perfume as you. Things isn't really getting better but at least I got to know that you ate the cookies that I had made & get to hear your voice after hours. Come back to me baby, oh baby come back. Life without you just sucks. Time passing slowly like a tortoise, my mood isn't really that good after all. I was very happy to hear that you really want to continue. But after some texts, you went missing again. Well, time is the key now. All you need is time, I know & I'll give. Falling in love is easy but moving on is the toughest part.

If one day you fall, I'll be the one catching.
Because you're the rare one.

** 12th, it's had been tough for you. I'll be standing in your shoes and spare a thought for you. If we meant to be together, we'll be. Even if we went one whole round of the globe, we'll be back as one. Our love story is written by god. So god, let bring both of our hearts together. My dear, I love you. :')

Smiling on the outside, crying in the inside.

Many things had been happening & I don't know how to handle it. I feel very useless for can't keeping you by my side. I'm lost without you guiding me. Life without you is unbearable. A day without your texts is like the end of the world. Keeping me busying is the only temporary way for me to stop thinking. Negative thoughts had been going round and round. My heart is broken into pieces, you're the only one that can fix it. Please don't walk into my life and walk away. Be the one saying, " Hey girl, be my one and only, be my last. " All these while, thanks for everything. :') Treating me like a princess who can rely on you, a kid who can be silly with you, a partner that you love dearly, a girlfriend who you can give all your love to & pampered her like no one does. Be my reason for loving you baby.


** My dearest 12th, I'll wait for you. You're the one I chosen myself and it's fate that bought us together. You worth my love & everything. I love you.